This post has been a long time coming, and of course, as I’ve written it’s become something totally different than I’d originally imagined. And I’m excited about that. The unknown hasn’t been looking so scary lately; in fact, it’s been looking like somewhere I want to be more often. After all, they say that there’s no reward without risk, and I’m remaining intentional about taking those risks. Making a change starts with taking risks.
As a gymnast, my sport was pretty much a game of risk. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I often held myself back out of fear. I struggled with the risk of trying new skills. But here’s the thing: while I rarely got injured, I also held myself back with that fear that developed from the idea of a risk. Instead of going for something I knew I could easily physically handle, I always seemed to stop short, and my gymnastics didn’t progress as quickly as it could have because of it. Fear is at the other side of risk. That unknown, while beautiful, can also be an overwhelming and intimidating thing. But again, if you want the reward, risk is step one.
All of that to say, I’ve got lots of goals this year that are well on their way to being accomplished, all of which are requiring me to step outside of my comfort zone. But I don’t want to let fear dictate how much I accomplish, and it’s been so good for me to think that way. I’m trying to keep in mind that there is that beautiful unknown in risk itself, a rush of adrenaline that pushes us outside of our boundaries even for just a moment. By going after those moments each day, that’s when this year is going to become a year of growth and expansion. There’s are pieces of mind, body, soul, and spirit that all come together to create a lasting change, so let’s get into mine.
Beginning a career is never easy, but it’s well worth the waiting to get it right. I’ve held a few part-time jobs over the last few years and they’ve served their purpose, but it’s time to move toward a full-time position in my wheelhouse: copywriting and editing. It’s an exciting, but ever risky, step to take. And I’m the only one who can do it for me. I’m completely ready to push my mind to its limits to create top-notch, customized, and unique content for the right company or organization. But first, that means putting myself out there in the application process and finding the right position for me to fill. The path I will take on this career journey isn’t mapped out, but I fully intend to work my way up the ladder in order to get where I want to be.
Along with taking on a new role, this job will more than likely require me to move closer to Providence and/or Boston. That means living further away from home than I ever have before, and it’s a whole lot of new all around. But wow, as much as new chapters can be intimidating at times, they also bring a freshness that filter into all facets of life. Fulfilling a new role and creating a new space for myself is just the place to begin, and while there are no guarantees, I know how much I need this risk to grow and become who I want to be.
Isn’t it funny how things just seem to run so much more smoothly when we move more? Our minds are clearer, we feel more energized, and making time for ourselves to move our bodies is a nice breather in our hectic day-to-day. However, it’s also easy to fall out of the habit of making that time. I’ve really been trying to take more risks in fitness lately. When I was a teenager, I never had to think about it; I went to gymnastics practice several times a week, where I was comfortable and knew what was required of me for success. Now, though, there are so many options out there for fitness programs, it can be hard to discern what would be the best choice for us. Added to that pressure is the fact that these options are all a financial investment. It gets to be a lot.
I have a traditional gym membership. Have I gone as much as I’d hoped over the last year? Not even close. It has honestly intimidated me; there are so many different machines to use, and quite frankly, I don’t know how to use most of them! Enter risk. I’ve been making myself go to that gym and for once not worry about what people think of me when I’m reading the directions on the side of the machine. We all have the same goal in being there, right? In addition to this, I’ve also been attending some fitness classes, which I honestly prefer. I’ve been going to Zumba and yoga, and while it was definitely scary at first to walk into those classrooms with little to no experience in the activity, I’ve had a lot of fun and have gotten a lot better as I go along! It was completely out of character for me to go out on a limb and try something so new, but to be honest, I’ve really enjoyed all of it. Who knows, maybe I’ll find other things that work better for me, but for now I’m treating my body right and enjoying myself. The risk has been a success so far, so let’s carry on!
There’s a sweet spot you sometimes hit in writing when the words just seem to flow as naturally as a symphony. Along with initial inspiration, it’s one of the best feelings in the world. That being said, writing is also one of the most limitless crafts in the world. You can do a whole lot with it, so you can’t begin to settle in. Writing requires risk. Correction: good writing requires risk. It takes time, and energy, my best, and that risk. I want to push the boundaries of genre and structure. Take those moments and things people walk by and make something stellar out of it. Put the biggest plot twist anyone has ever seen right in the middle of the story (such is life, right?). I don’t want to remain comfortable within the pages of my notebook, and so begins a very fun era in my writing. So often, we stick to “our lane”, but isn’t that such a waste? Creativity is another game of risk, and the reward is rich. Join me in pushing our perspectives and our voices. This world needs them.
As time goes on, I’m realizing that the fear of something is so often much worse than the thing itself, and I no longer want fear to have the control. Ultimately, that’s no way to live, and there’s no way to grow that way. We always have to push our boundaries, because there’s way too much out there to simply stay in one place. Allowing fear of a risk to overpower us results in staying the same, and to be honest, I’m much more scared of that than anything else.
Much Love, Quinn